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6/29/2007

Some hurtful things

I can't help it but i just have to put an entry about what happened yesterday..

My father book me a ticket to eatch transformers with my family without tellin me. I promisedfik that i'll watch with him when he wants to watch it.So fik must have gotten upset and didnt talk to me the next few hours.. &.. he didnt even tell me his whereabouts. Nothing big but we always tell each other where we are just to get updated a bit.

& today..he didnt even tell me he has a class outing.. I am all disappointed & upset & in the first place it isnt my fault. I understand very much he can be upset bcoz of what happened but... he is seriously putting my patience to e test. If he expects me to like report everything to him.. i expect e same. fair n square. I am not enjoying any single shit he's giving me.. But one thing for sure. If he's no giving in or just say sorry. He wont expect any more from me. The only thing i can say is that... It's not fair on both of us but he shud understand my situation.

I have nothing else to say but just that..i think GOD is testing my patience or. he is tryna show he isnt really the one.. I shall just see.. what time will tell me....

iQi

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6/4/2007

Pissed on a birthday

Right now i dunno to laugh cry or shout.

Birthday wish from Mr.Bf turns out to be... a fight.

I am seriously confused if we're really meant to be. Because every sentimental dates we ended up fighting.

I really mean serious shit. Ever since we've been so busy... We rarely talk. We hardly meet. & even if we meet its only for like what.. 30-45 mins. I hardly take that as a meeting. I did try to look at e bright side saying at least i met himm. But somehow this feeling.. Saying that am fed up.. Fed up with him sticking ard with his frens & sticking with his god knows who.. & when we're spose to meet. We ended up fiting. I seriously am lost rite now.. coz i know.. I have been a really good girl now.. sighh... He just msged me... Saying he's sorry.. & he dun wanna spoil my bdae.. I dun give a fuck abt my bdae actuali..

My bdae means nothing much actuali. Not much but there's this little feeling in me that i shud live life to e fullest. Since we live only once.Truthfully.. i find any rship really.. Unnecessary problems, Coz frankly.. I feel like my life i have no bf. Thou deep down in me.. I still love him.. Its just that we're not together physically.. I admit.. I really miss those times when we can be together almost everyday. But.. With me & him chasing our own career for now.. It feels life changed. I changed. He's still e same.. haha..

A work.. My life is surrounded by chinese guys for now.. Its fun talking ot em. DIfferent thinkin from e malays.. But oh well. I still love my Taufik.

He is. Just the one i am comfy with. Any other guys that makes me feel much better. Is. Impossible. WAHHAHAHA.

P.s am turning ugly by e minute, Dun worri ppl. AM ugly now. Sheesh.

5/30/2007

Secretive things Haha.

Yesterday, after lecture class on economics. Me,Carol,Geraldine,Samad,Vinod,Farah,James & Fahri went to the smoking area side wihch was Block E if am not wrong. I forgot. So we e girls were bitching about this girl name Claudia. While waiting fer e others to smoke. Carol came up to me.

She said,"iQi.. I have a secret to tell you." Then i was like what is it? So she said.."erm.. Everytime i talk to you uh.. I notice ur boobs u know.." I suddenly cracked up& laugh so loud. Carol told Farah about it. Hahahaha. I Seriously laughed. I mean like. It's different if a girl comment on my boobs on MSN or sms. Face to face feels weird. not to say weird as in lesbian kind or something. Just weird coz girls notice boobs too. (i mean haha. I do look at boobs as well :P)

SO yeah. It was all funny. Changed the topic nd we went to ViVo City to get some food and walked around. That was left me,Farah,James & fahri only. We ended up playing catching. Cool shit la. & other than that. Went to work at night. & everything went smooth on the grill side. I became cashier on that day. Cashiers have this advantage. Dun need to clear plates n walk around. Instead, the only bad thing is that i have to like make sure I am not short of more than $2. PAthetic. So yeah. I just grilled some food & ate them when am free.

Baby boy fetch me home on that night. Was missing him and whining to him that i missed him. He looks shagged cause he hasn't get enough sleep lately due to school & work. After school, then go to work till like 2 3 am. I pity him big time. So after he dropped me off. We just chatted. I mean like I have so many things to talk to him. We rarely talk on the phone because I have assignments to do while he will still be working his ass off. He has no money due to God knows what. I forgot why he's lack of money.

Other than that. I slept earlier yesterday. Slept around 12.52 AM. YES!

iQi

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My updates

Ok. From now on. I shall try my very best to type out whatever happenings i have in detail. Not just the surface. I type my life out on e surface is due to I have no time to rili brood about what happened. So thay's why. Plus I shall try to keep my emotions in so u cud feel what am feeling. & if by any chance u dun get my feelings. Thats just you problem arite.

I forgot my blogspot User ID & password so I have to like update everything here. Screw the tag board. I dun need e tag board. I have comments area here. So yeah ppl. Do feel free to read me up from now on.

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2/22/2007